Jac Depczyk : cyberartist

Lets establish the order of priorities here...

Clearly, the fact that you do not like yourself is of greater significance than your wish to be photographed (or not).
Such feelings can escalate and become a serious hindrance - you should not delay confronting them.
I cannot resolve your inner conflicts, but, at the very least, i can show you what you look like, and what you can look like.
Photography, all kinds of photography, gives you this essential knowledge - you will not get it from staring at the mirror.

Your feelings are subjective and could be based on false assumptions - get the hard evidence...